There is reasons for everything.

While one side of me keep telling me: "May be you are right. I should start to forget the past and look into future" , the other goes opposite by saying: "You will get hurted again"

Its not that I am scared but I am a person with very very low self-esteem and confidence. I showed everyone my happiest face in the morning but when the night comes where silence take over the world, there I am facing myself. I chose not to speak to close friends because I don't want them to help me think about my problems. They have their own to worry for.

I gave myself one year to pass down everything on hand and finish off what I have planned. And then..... and then I will say good bye for the time being. I do not know where will I be going but definitely a better place.